Be Outside My Comfort Zone

HAPPY NEW YEAR for everyone! Have a resolution for 2008? I have! I want to lose all the weight that I gain after meeting Sheldon :D...

Btw, I started this year by taking a class that is absolutely outside of my comfort zone... BEGINNING JAZZ VOCAL Class!!!!! I actually signed up for this class two years ago, but it was cancelled because not enough people signed up. Then I signed up again the next quarter, but I dropped it after the first class because I felt I was going to embarrass myself and actually had a nerve break down as other people in class have had previous vocal experiences and they were good. I knew that there would be a public performance at the end of the class. I just could not see myself singing in the public with those people.

As time went by, I decided to give myself another try... I was thinking if I have the same breakdown, I can drop the class with a full refund. So I have nothing to lose. I went to the class, and again! all people have previous choir experiences or have taken vocal classes. And AGAIN! I am the suckest in the class. I was experience the same thing... The teacher gave us "everyday I have the blues" by BB king as a warm up song. I almost cried after I sang it as I could not sing the notes properly. Singing blues is just a nightmare.

I went home and told Sheldon that I was going to drop this class again. But he kept encouraging me to go to the class. He did not want me to give up again. He was even willing to come to the second class to be my support!!!! I had my moments where I fight with myself to either drop it or not. But then somehow I was able to drag myself to go to the second class.

Surprisingly, everything was turned around after meeting a new guy in the second class. He said he have taken a vocal class and he is taking a music class too this quarter. And surprisingly his singing is as bad as mine :P. But he just enjoyed himself while he sang. He sang his heart out, and looked so confidence even he was not familiar with "everyday I have the blues". Then it was my turned to sang the song. Nervous kicked in, but felt not much pressure, this time I just wanted to sing and I did not care if I sang the right note or not. Everyone knows I don't have any vocal experience, so I should not hard on myself, I do not have to prove anything. I sang the song my best and of course still sang it out of tunes hahahahahaha! but the second time was better! I sang a couple more songs and I had a blast. I can't wait to come the class again next week.

I'm glad and proud of myself to throw myself out there to experience a new thing outside my comfort zone. I just hate the moment when I am the worst among the pack and don't know how to do things properly. But I am able to convince myself there is always a first time for everything and it has to start somewhere. I am going to perform in the next 8 weeks in one of the jazz pub. I told my girlfriends about it and they will there for me to give a full support! YEAH, u girls are rocks! And of course my lovely husband will be there with his full support and for sure he will get sick of me singing "everyday I have the blues, autumn leaves and L-O-V-E" everyday for the next 8 weeks hahahahahaha...